This again?

I really wish I could say that I’ve been quiet on the blog front because I’ve been burning the midnight oil on my final week of school. I haven’t.  I wish I could say that I contemplating new ways of expression and new directions for my writing. I’d be lying.

What I have been doing is focusing on things that are so inconsequential, so minute, of such low regard that I couldn’t do what He called me to do. I’m annoyed about it so I can only IMAGINE how I’ve made HIM feel.

And it’s nothing new that I’m dealing with that’s causing the hiccup…I realized I’m still on the same old  stuff that He 1) answered already, 2) dealt with already, 3) has been off of for a minute now.   You can’t grow unless you let go. And I didn’t realize just how much baggage I was still walking around with. Baggage of doubt, anxiety, insecurity, lack of confidence…nonsense stuff….because He already ended all of that when He called me by my name.

But you know why I love Him so much. He ain’t surprised by my hold-up. He ain’t even dwelling on it and riding my back about it.  He made it clear to me what the problem was and said “let’s fix it and here’s how”.

I heard. I’m on it.

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