There’s an old saying “one monkey don’t stop no show” (I just recently found out that it was the title to a song from way back…but I digress). It basically means that all the work that you have undertaken can’t be and shouldn’t be stopped by any one person or thing. Problem is that there is ALWAYS at least one “monkey” floating around somewhere and a lot of times it’s the one that has been on your back for most of your life. It could be your family who supports you, but has never really had a dream of their own to know how it feels to try to attain it. It could be your spouse who loves you dearly, but only looks at your passion as “the cute little hobby”. Or it could be the years of living under blankets of insecurity, fear, and hope (but subsequent failure) of acceptance that knock you back every time you take even one step toward your purpose. Monkeys.
But here’s how to shake them all. DO SOMETHING. Period. Because you can die waiting, both physically and purposefully.
As this project starts to fill out, you may notice that some issues come up several times. The feel of writing may seem different, but the subject matter is basically the same.
I want to assure you that you are correct.
Life, I’ve found, is a series of repetitions. And in this Christian walk, it can sometimes be a reiteration of the repetition. As much as I hate to admit it, it’s one of the things I love most about my relationship with the LORD. In general, people don’t allow you a complete “do-over”, not even on the good things. When you mess up, they may let you back to the edge of their lives, but they will always be watching your movements to see if you’re about to do it again (whatever it may be). Even with the good things, you almost aren’t allowed to live it down because if you don’t top the thing you did originally, then your good is never good enough.
It is absolutely not like that with God. You can (and will) repeat certain things as He is working on you. He will eat your abuse, your neglect, your callousness, your stupidity, your ego, your pride, your arrogance, your independence while you 1. work out your decision and 2. commit to him. You are inevitably going to screw something up but He has even made provision for that. Psalm 37: 24 which in essence means that your stumble is simply your opportunity to get up and try again. Clean slate. Because He’s got you.