Daily Archives: March 17, 2012

You can run

You’ll notice a post about “doin it”….being specific and persistent.  But whadda I know?

Today, I’m on a bus coming from the city and it breaks down. Like shuts off on its own. NEVER in all the time I’ve lived in the tri-state area and/or needed to be on public transportation have I ever had that issue.  Never had a train stop. Never had a bus stall. But this one said “I’m DONE.”

Why is this important?  Because as I’m sitting and waiting for a new bus or the next bus, I “prayed”: “Lord….somebody ain’t got NO business being on this bus. Cover them Lord. AhhhMen.” I texted my pastor Revvie (that’s what I call her) to tell her the funny story and she gently let me know that the person who ain’t have no business there, might just be me, and sent me Jonah 1:3-16.  All I could do was laugh! Could it really be me that’s holding Lil Robbie up from meeting his girlfriend at the mall?

So you’re wondering…how is any of this connected?  Well, I am supposed to be praying specifically and persistently about a new job and a new car.  Not only am I supposed to be praying definitively on those things,  I know it’s well past time for those two issues to come to fruition.  I started out strong, but I got distracted. And so, I’m still on the bus.  Even further, I know I’m supposed to be updating this blog consistently.  I even met with my mentor to talk about the work I know I have to do, but I realized leaving her that I still honestly haven’t fully signed onto this ride.  I’ve done the minimum to make myself feel like I’m being obedient. In person, it looks like I’m “on my way”. In my mind, I’m sitting under that tree like Jonah, cursing God out.  But, as usual, My Daddy has a way of checking me that always makes me laugh…and not always funny ha-ha, but funny, I got it.

And on this, I got it. I have stuff to do.

Do it…and keep doin it

It’s one thing to pray. It’s yet another thing to pray for something. A step further from that, to pray for something consistently. But the pièce de résistance is to do all that for a specific purpose.  Anyone can talk to God. But do you have the spiritual maturity to believe that He will supply the exact thing you need and have asked Him for with clarity, conviction, and tenacity.  *Now don’t be confused – just because you ask Him e’ry day for a red Maserati with a model type to ride in the passenger seat don’t mean you’ll get it. Be sensible.*

I think it comes down to doubt and settling.  Because if I don’t really believe that you have my back, then I’ll just pray for the minimum – the things I only kinda want – hoping against hope that You’ll see through my dopefiend move and still hook me up. And when/if I don’t get what I really desire, I can only be so disappointed. And that’s the goal, to meter the disappointment.  But that’s a really foul way to look at Jesus because it simply becomes a play of the domino affect. Because if I don’t expect much from You, you obviously can’t expect much from me because I will always be playing the fence somehow. I might ask, but only once.  I might have a specific desire in mind, but never ask. I may be persistent, but about nothing in particular.

Useless! Useless! Useless!